If only…
May 13, 2006I’ve just written a long post inspired by “destiny and heart” pero may napress akong kung anong key at nawala silang lahat.
Maybe, it’s just not meant to be said. Not yet.
Pero to make it less personal…
Do you believe in “soulmates”? I wan’t to believe in it because I think I met mine in an unlikely place, in an unlikely time. Destiny. Coincidences. You feel something you can’t explain. The thing is I didn’t let my heart speak out. I was afraid of a lot of things.
I didn’t even think we became real friends. Maybe he just came to my life for a certain reason and since nafulfill na yung purpose, he’s out of my life na. Ganun lang. Ganun lang kaya yun?
May fault din siguro ako, I didn’t grab the opportunity to know him more. I let go of a number of chances.
Paano na yung pagiging soulmates? Maybe kung soulmate ko nga siya, I’ll meet him again in an unlikely place and at an unexpected time. Am I getting too weird?
Siya lang talaga ang guy na nagkaroon ng impact sa akin. Yun lang talaga yon. I could say a lot of if onlys pero wala naman magagawa…
All that’s left for me now is his school books (yes, he let me borrow all his pre-med books… and its the only time I met him face to face - a real quick meeting) and a fantasy of my if onlys…
All comments are moderated. Your comments will not appear here unless approved by the blog owner. Thank you.
I love life - its mystery and its complexity. There is much to discover and to understand. I love people with passion. It's always interesting to meet a person overflowing with emotion. I love to play the piano and listen to intersting music. I like working with my hands that proabably explains my affinity with playing, doing crafts, typing (blogging) and even eating when doing nothing but I can't seem to make my whole body coordinated that you can't make me dance or do sports. I also like walking beside the bay, watching people, singing or humming, smiling or greeting strangers, thinking and not thinking of anything at all. || I prefer intimacy. I don't like going into bars or partying where you go on group dates. I like it when I can give 100% attention to whom I'm with because when I'm with a lot of people, I feel I have to accomodate them and I'm not able to share quality time with any of them. Drinking coffee and dining out is always on the top of the list.|| I feel I'm sitll living in my comfort zone. I'm yet to understand what's on the the other side of the wall. I'm yet to understand what others say 'the cruelty of reality' (if there is such). I like to do so may things but remain generally a passive person. I'm still on the path of discovering and adapting to the ideals (irony) of reality .
